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I haver been having disturbing dreams as of late
I have had some dreams of my ex-fia' lately, all about the good times, laughing and being a nice normal couple..
But 1, they are just dreams,she is a nut case..SO !.
I am thinking I am missing intamacy, the feeling that someone loves you as you do them, missing the feeling of appreciation, admiration towards each other, just the aura of a loving couple.
I am not saing I would ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever think of her and I having any relationship, since she is a pyscho liar hose beast b*tch wh*re dirty tr*mp wallet snifing sl*t who is deceptive to all around her..
I think I am realizing, heck i am half way to 70 in a month, and I have no significant other, no children, no established normalcy in my life to keep me humble, grounded, and wake up for a reason , to provide and take care of my loved ones...
I have many friends I cosider very dear, My sister, her husband, are so lucky, both great people, great kids...
I envy them as well as my buddy Kevin (p29) and Sarah, they have each other as well as Jr. A great kid, and a great family, You have the XO's The Dailey's, The Mongo's The Bill272's ,threecrabs & co,. Garydebs, who are picture perfect as family can be....That is so awesome, I envy you for your poise (sp) and ability to teach your children the basic right and rwrong....and to be great examples to others...
You have Shandog, Traveler, Lainey, Lisa c-girl(jon)who are single parents and are exemplory in there attitude, and performance as parents, dealing with adversaty, and always succeeding.
I applaud all of you...
I only hope I have the chance, and day to be half the people you are. I remeber waking up in the morning having he morning coffee, knowing that the person sleeping in the bed loves me, trusts me, and is glad I am here to make coffe for them.. I am just wondering when will it be my time to experience all the wonderful things you are... You all are truley blessed !
I haver been having disturbing dreams as of late
I have had some dreams of my ex-fia' lately, all about the good times, laughing and being a nice normal couple..
But 1, they are just dreams,she is a nut case..SO !.
I am thinking I am missing intamacy, the feeling that someone loves you as you do them, missing the feeling of appreciation, admiration towards each other, just the aura of a loving couple.
I am not saing I would ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever think of her and I having any relationship, since she is a pyscho liar hose beast b*tch wh*re dirty tr*mp wallet snifing sl*t who is deceptive to all around her..
I think I am realizing, heck i am half way to 70 in a month, and I have no significant other, no children, no established normalcy in my life to keep me humble, grounded, and wake up for a reason , to provide and take care of my loved ones...
I have many friends I cosider very dear, My sister, her husband, are so lucky, both great people, great kids...
I envy them as well as my buddy Kevin (p29) and Sarah, they have each other as well as Jr. A great kid, and a great family, You have the XO's The Dailey's, The Mongo's The Bill272's ,threecrabs & co,. Garydebs, who are picture perfect as family can be....That is so awesome, I envy you for your poise (sp) and ability to teach your children the basic right and rwrong....and to be great examples to others...
You have Shandog, Traveler, Lainey, Lisa c-girl(jon)who are single parents and are exemplory in there attitude, and performance as parents, dealing with adversaty, and always succeeding.
I applaud all of you...
I only hope I have the chance, and day to be half the people you are. I remeber waking up in the morning having he morning coffee, knowing that the person sleeping in the bed loves me, trusts me, and is glad I am here to make coffe for them.. I am just wondering when will it be my time to experience all the wonderful things you are... You all are truley blessed !